Three Days

So about a month ago my boy Chris Mark comes up to me, and asks "Hey brother would you like to come to Tres Dias?" Now i had heard from my other brothers and sister about there wonderful experiences at this retreat, and had thought about going. At this moment the devil started working on me telling me it really wasnt that grand, and i could just wait and go next spring.

Boy am I glad i didn't listen.

So off to this retreat i go. Thinking ok i'll learn some more and get more knowledge about God. It'll be worth it. Boy was that an understatement. This retreat was an experience unlike any other i have ever had with God. I learned so many things about God's grace and love that i "knew", but didn't really know. If that makes any since. I learned so much about myself and how dependent i have to be on God, but also how I must depend on the other Christ followers. As many of you know i've always been "Mr. Fix It:" for everyone else, but when it came to my own stuff. I just wanted to be left alone.... I thought i could do it by myself. I was wrong in that one too.

I had gotten to a point where i truly believed that because of the things in my past that God had done all he could do with me, and that i was stuck where i was at. Granted where i'm at ain't bad at all, but God wants so much more me. He has so much more planned for me! I accept that and i'm ready for it. God did so much for me in Three Days.

I have heard from people who are in the prophetic tealm several times that i had an "Orphan Spirit" and counted them as crazy and just went on with my thing. Well this weekend i truly realized what they we're talking about, and that it was true. I wanted the acceptance of those around me, and i would conform to whatever they we're to be accepted. I looked back on a time in my life, and realized that it was when i was happiest. When i could truly be myself. When we would chill on the weekends With Tara, Andrew, Heather, Loren, Mike, Niki, Faith, Andrea, and all the others that went in and out of our group there in Virginia Beach. The Group that went from Tara & Andrew's, Then to Mike and Niki's and then make our way to Heather's at mullholland Drive.  That was when i was truly myself. I had forgotten how free i was back then.

Well it's time to be me again cause God loves me for me, and that's all that matters. So i to put it a certain way Bama is back. Fohawk and all. If you don't like that oh well. Its time for me to be me. What God wants me to be not what everyone else thinks i should be.



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